emotions

Saw some new short films today and one of them made me realize that we all have stories small or big and its very possible, that would have happened with someone else too.

Human emotions are really complex and a face cannot show all but a heart can emote beyond the face.In our daily life we give importance to things which happen around our lives and most of them are very close to us and we build our whole existence around that! Some times  we are so obsessive that anything which we are not aware during these moments we start believing that is not real and mind is not ready to accept the new feeling.

Some time back I went to my grand mom's place, its a village and she was not well so we wanted to meet her.It was not a welcome visit that day  because we had some arguments and left with a some bad vibes.I knew that day my grand mom will not be normal again and for me actually it became the last meeting as well in which she had spoken to me.

While returning from grandma's place there were so many feelings I had and cannot even think how many my mom would be going through because she had arguments with her brother.
Its really strange that the people you love the most they hurt you also the most.

Between all this bad mood I was retrospecting that when a person is not well they over react and this would have caused the contradicting love and hate feelings.I was feeling all that but completely ignored the emotion which was going to be a reality soon.
This was about loosing the person you love and care for and realize you will not see again.

I could have done something better to keep the atmosphere normal that day and taken care of and loved my grand mom more than I did , but didn't because was so involved in those arguments and stressed by them , didn't think of the future at all but may be this is what god wanted and life is completely unpredictable so my mind was blocked with the current.
This is our limitation as normal human beings we cannot think beyond a moment!!!

In the starting of my blog I said Heart can emote more than face and the reason is face is so much controlled by mind but heart is not!!

Although professionally we can manage work very well and we can plan for future but life is not the same , we cannot control our feelings knowing what will happen in future because that is not mind game, but we can meditate and control our anger which is the most disruptive emotion!May be then we can travel in future and come to know about the new emotions which will strike us unpredictably!!